All Hope is Gone.

That was the WORST. I never want to go into recovery. This sucks. The guy was super nice, got my trust, I told him the same stuff I told the doctor, then…

He asked more about the side effects. I mention I have passed out 6 times in the last 2 1/2- 3 weeks and collapsed about 5 times on top of that and he then says (with a very unhopeful disposition) that they may not be equipped to handle that and he’ll have to run it by the doctors and basically long story short: NO ONE IS WILLING TO HELP.

Remember that ounce of hope I had. GONE. I’m done. Defeated. I don’t care anymore. I promised I would tell the truth and I did and see where that got me? No where. 

He said he would call me back in a day or so after hearing from the team but I am not expecting it to be a good call. I hate this. I hate me. I hate my life. I hate that he made me gain some trust to tell him everything and then yanked that carpet right out from underneath me just like the doctors did last time with my stomach. Lesson learned. 

4 thoughts on “All Hope is Gone.

  1. Please don’t lose hope. I am sorry that all of these people are letting you down. You DESERVE HELP. I can’t imagine how defeated you must be feeling, but please don’t give up. You are strong and beautiful and deserving. Sending you lots of positive thoughts and gentle hugs, if okay?


  2. Again, I know I’ve already commented once and I’m not trying to be annoying, but I just wanted to let you know that I’m here if you need to talk. I have hope for you. xx.

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      • I’m glad that you have a little more hope. I hope that it keeps coming. I can only imagine how overwhelming it was to finally seek out help just to have someone make you feel like they can’t help you. That’s on them, though, not you. I look forward to reading your post about it. Keep blogging and leaning on us for support. Xx

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