residential begins on Monday.
😔😕😟😞😢😥😨😱😰😩😮😳😶
That pretty much sums me up.
I am thankful I am flying to Chicago on Sunday, a place that feels like home, and then my aunt is driving me to WI on Monday for treatment. I think it’ll make my transition easier, less stressful, and less sickening. At least, I hope.
Right now, I alternate between being okay and being frozen with fear.
I am still just astonished that I am this sick. Inpatient was mentioned by the doctors today in the event residential isn’t enough. I hope it’s enough, this is terrifying enough.
Anyway, wish me luck today I have to tell my bosses beginning Monday I’ll be out continuously for 6 weeks probably. 😳😰😰
How did I get to this point?!?
running toward recovery 
All the best. Work hard cos life is better after recovery xo
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Thanks beautiful! I alternate between okay and panicked so hearing everyone’s kind thoughts has been super helpful!
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Wishing you so much love and sending every ounce of strength the internet will carry. xx Please be gentle with yourself. I’ll be thinking of you.
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Thank you!!! You’ve been so supportive I can’t say enough thanks but it really helps a lot!!!
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Aw I’m so glad you can find some comfort in it. So much of what you’re going through reminds me of my own past that I can’t help but feel connected to you.
If you have any desire to chat over email sometime let me know and I’ll happily share my email addy with you.
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Thank you so much! I am going to see how much access to email I have at treatment but that sounds lovely!!
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Sending you lots of positive thoughts. Make the most of this treatment to give your new life without ED the best start it can get.
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Thanks darlin’. I am going to try my best and give it my all! I think it’ll help that I’ll be out of my normal atmosphere and state. One benefit is I LOVE fall and it’ll feel like fall bc I won’t be in Fl so that’s already making me happy and feeling like I can do this (which is so ridiculous lol but I’ll take my “wins” where I find them right now lol)
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Wishing you so much good luck. Your courage to tackle this is really inspiring. Sending you tons of healing, positive thoughts and gentle hugs, if okay. xxx
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Thanks!!!! Xxx can’t wait to overcome this beast and I am genuinely glad I am fighting it, it’s just so scary!!!
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I can only imagine how scary it is, but you’re so brave to be fighting it. Take good care!! xxx
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I wish you all the best. You can do this! If you weren’t ready you wouldn’t have taken all the steps you have taken so far.
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Yes, you are so right! I need to remember this more! Plus my treatment team here trained with the one I am going to and they say they are great so I shouldn’t be so worried they specialize in this. I need to be more confident you are right, I can do this because I already took the hardest step of admitting my problem
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It’s always hard to admit that you have a problem and ask for help.
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